Aching, Tired, and Weak are three words to sum up my day. I must have slept at an awkward angle last night because today is rough!. I guess there will always be good and bad days, but severe back pain makes for a pretty bad day. The one thing I find with the pain from scoliosis is that it has a direct influence on my emotions. Therefore, not only is my body screaming but my mind as well. I feel like crawling into a little ball and yelling at the world to leave me alone.... Ah yes I do know this will pass and I do look forward to my cheery outlook on life. However, momentarily it is hard to see through this veil of pain.
I was a bit shocked to find that even 3 1/2 months post operation there are days when the weakness and tiredness from my back becomes overwhelming. The majority of my days I feel like I could climb Mt. Everest; however, then there are days where getting out of bed is a struggle. I do pray that over the course of time these brutal days will begin to become obsolete. <3
Hang in there, Megan! It will get better day by day, month to month. I don't regret having my Harrington Rod Instrumental surgery some 38+ years ago, and look how far the surgery has come since then! You're doing amazing, Megan. One reminder: don't compare yourself to what you were like pre-surgery, or to what you think you should be able to do now. Take it easy, extend grace to yourself, and focus on things outside of this surgery. Life is beautiful despite it's challenges and setbacks. You are living proof of this. I'm rooting for ya, Megan! Love ya....Wynne
ReplyDelete<3 Thank-you Wynne - It is hard to remember to take every day in stride, but yes, I don't think I will ever regret this decision. It is amazing how far the surgery has come ! and maybe one day there will be a non invasive solution for other scoliosis patients :)
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